Sunday, November 8, 2026

My Art has disappeared off the internet / It was all a big dream.

Since 2010 my accomplishments have one by one disappeared from the digital archives of galleries, curators and wherever else they appeared. It feels like all that effort and dedication disappeared into thin air. I gave up a lot to build my career as an artist. Yet, in the end it only took a few years to be erased by eroding digital archives, by galleries and arts websites re-vamping their websites from scratch, for no really good reason, and in the process all of our amazing work was lost. 

Not just mine. 

A majority of the fabulous hopeful mid 1990's to early 2010s has already been wiped off the internet. So much work. How many of us are still knee-deep in debt from everything we dedicated? Am I bitter? Perhaps I am a little. I am just glad that I moved on, I made choices that have set me free from chasing after the elusive success and legacy building. 

You can't build a legacy on the internet. Art .. I always thought it was so present and that somehow it would last. I would be in catalogues and I would be remembered. Memory. It was a big dream. 

Here is a link to one of my last big art projects:  LINK . 




Blogger was where it all started..

...and by chance I just stumbled on this old art journal blog of mine and I wonder if I shouldn't have just stayed here and never have left..

It is November 2026, so much has happened. So many of the websites this blog links to are not what my adult self thinks about the world or is interested in anymore but I also don't have time to sift through everything, so I am tempted to leave this all as is, as a sort of archive of past naivety and sometimes past stupidity and definitely past emotional oversharing.. 

Once day I'll come back and edit it all. Package it into a neater version of myself today, or tomorrow or perhaps when I become an old tortoise..

In the meantime: I'm selling some old art work. Have you EVER desired any of my work? Please reach out IMMEDIATELY use the comments or contact form or find me on FB https://www.facebook.com/birgit.deubner . I know I should make this easier. But you know how it is, great marketing knowledge to share and so little time to implement it to myself.

For sales: I have two different PayPal link options, THIS one here is better than the donate PayPal button in the sidebar. So use THIS >> paypal.me/BirgitInAmerica


Friday, June 30, 2023

What happens to your soul when you live too long in a soulless place?

I can't quite say but I think the answers will include: 

"Nothing good can come out of a vacuum." 

That's my thought for the day. 


Wednesday, April 26, 2023

anything new? / from the May 2011 archive

I am currently making submissions for grants and residencies.
Mostly I am enjoying reading and working on new ideas/projects.

Since inclusion in the Catlin Art Guide I have been approached by a surprising number of 'opportunities' that require me to pay a fee to get more opportunities that require a further fee. I think this is silly, so please don't offer me opportunities that require me to pay you. I am interested in being paid, in selling work and in making work. 

As a multi skilled professional I am; among other services; available for hire as Artist, photographer, workshop leader/ co-leader, researcher, translator, writer and organizer of events, schedules, exhibitions, performances and available as artistic director and editor.. I am always available for good ideas and positive action. But I am not willing to participate in more opportunities that make the organisation, offering them, rich and me poor.



Here is something for your 'entertainment' : a very old clip from my project archive filmed on 16mm cine film in 2007.

update 2026:
I had to update the archive link as my original Youtube account was hacked and I lost access to it. Sadly it was hacked years ago. Google isn't very helpful.  It is only since earlier in 2026 that my original hacked account was finally taken down by Youtube, I now feel better about re-publishing / setting to public my original videos. 

This leads me to really wish for more technical / digital independence. I am considering looking into self-hosting my work. In an un-hackable way. And on that topic I just listened to a Tim Ferris interview with Derek Sivers and that lead me to David Siver's webpage sharing a HOW to: Tech Independence 







archive reshuffle / originally collected in 2012 / this is a note to myself

http://www.1948.org.uk/historical-background/

volunteering at the SF Symphony http://www.sfsymphony.org/Buy-Tickets/Calendar

http://www.huffingtonpost.com/2011/11/22/indigenous-peoples-sunrise-gathering_n_1108925.html

http://www.knittingparadise.com/t-34494-1.html

De Young Volunteer: http://deyoung.famsf.org/volunteer


CULT OF CROCHET

http://cultofcrochet.wordpress.com/2011/05/08/seamless-fingerless-glove-pattern/

The Purl Bee http://www.purlbee.com/2-ply-4-ply-why-ply/

Easy Crochet Patterns http://easymakesmehappy.blogspot.com/2010/03/page-under-construction-crochet.html

crochet stuff blog http://foothillhomecompanion.blogspot.com/2011/02/crochet-star-pattern.html

Blo A La Cart : crochet pouff http://blogalacart.com/2011/04/knit-pouf/

Knit and Bake blog http://www.knitandbake.com/2012/03/09/one-skein-one-night-seed-stitch-tall-cowl-easy-free-knitting-pattern/ good cowl knitting tutorial, one skein.

Blue Alpacas, patterns for crochet blog: http://blueskyalpacas.com/patterns/aunt-aggies-trivets/

Traditional Yoga Studies store
http://astore.amazon.ca/traditionalyogastudies108-20/detail/1591790093

Great store
http://www.soundstrue.com/shop/welcome


Knitting Help:
http://www.knittinghelp.com/forum/showthread.php?t=75637

https://www.ravelry.com/account/login

SF Art Consultancy / Management
http://www.lightboxsf.com/services/

Sandra Dieckman INSPIRATIONAL http://sandradieckmann.com/Tomorrow-Bear




Review: The Total Work of Art in European Modernism by David Roberts

http://makemag.com/review-the-total-work-of-art-in-european-modernism-by-david-roberts/

thinks to do with the ipad:
Blogsy http://blogsyapp.com/how-to/?v=update

http://www.elephantjournal.com/2012/10/naked-ayurveda/

Photographer TIPS PROFESSIONAL http://www.medianovak.com/blog/photography/5-common-mistakes-wedding-photographers-make-when-creating-a-website/

Self Publishing
http://www.lulu.com/blog/

ipad as writing tool / serious use
http://www.zdnet.com/blog/mobile-news/ipad-2-as-a-serious-writing-machine-how-to/5964

I want to change the world but sleep instead
http://www.rebellesociety.com/2012/10/30/6209/


article about das Ewige Eis, Arctic defrost and refreeze...
http://www.sueddeutsche.de/wissen/antarktis-ausgewogenes-ewiges-eis-1.1504537

JAPANESE SLIPPERS PATTERN!!!
http://www.ravelry.com/patterns/library/japanese-house-slippers

going where we don't belong

"travelling to where we don't belong, a collection of tales about men and women who crossed borders to bring back answers.."


Sunday, November 19, 2017

SOS Birgit's Youtube account has been stolen by hackers!

This is really sad. I have the majority of my Art Videos on my Youtube account under the Channel Name : Papersculptures. Somebody hacked it, the security questions (that I would need to answer to regain access) are in Chinese Script. I have spent the past 3 hours trying to get my account back, but Google aren't really set up for scatterbrained artists, who simply haven't looked at their account in years BUT now want to continue their Art practice.

I am really pretty sad. This account hosts a lot of videos that are linked to this (old and dusty) blog and are an important chapter in my Art Career.

Do you have any suggestions how I can get my account back (remember the verification process is NOT working for me and I know that Google don't deal with personals by way of checking passport ID for example, but gosh why not!? Tragedy!)



























Sunday, December 13, 2015

Fiskars and it's offerings

I am educating myself about Fiskars from around the web but right now I am investigating some of the makers in the village. 
Some websites need some tlc.. But must remember I am going as Artist not Admin wizzard.. 

http://www.fiskarsvillage.fi/en/home

Friday, December 11, 2015

Daylight in Finland

Looking up daylight hours for when I will be in Finland for my Artist residency. There will be about 5 - 5.5 hours of daylight each day. But my main concern is not so much the light as: will I be warm enough? I hardly have any warm clothes and no budget to get any. So here is my plan: I will rely on clothing loans. After all I am not going to be there for a fashion show but to play with creative ideas..

http://www.timeanddate.com/astronomy/finland/helsinkihttp://www.timeanddate.com/astronomy/finland/helsinki


Something that I am finding very difficult in the lead up to this residency is the burden of responsibility. Just taking a glimpse at the events of the world it is hard to picture myself not keeping in mind the hardship that so many people face today. Somehow it is important that while the Art happens there is also room for respect and bearing witness. 

Saturday, August 8, 2015

Discoveries

Not only did I discover a copy of Anne Carsone's illustrated hardcopy of Antigonic in a local bookshop on 24th Street in the Mission in San Francisco 3 weeks ago. I stumbled across more volumes of her writing and couldn't help myself but purchase two more books by her..

Adding to my Anne Carson collection: 'Men in the Off Hours'  & ' If Not, Winter'

Men in the Off Hours has some really relevant material for my research strand. 

Wednesday, December 10, 2014

FISKARS Artist Village Residency - beginning in November 2015, country: Finland

I was invited and have accepted the offer of taking up one of an annual handful of Artist residencies in Fiskars Village. My proposal was all about story gathering and story telling. I am extremely excited to have been selected.

Fiskars: I am coming!

(and I may bring my very own glassmaker to create glass for me to use as props for ..)

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Saturday, November 1, 2014

Work with me

My skills are available for hire..
I like to tell stories, photograph and film.
I like to teach drawing classes ..
I like to build

your imagination is the limit

Sunday, September 14, 2014

The Sampo / something to watch this week

I am making an application to a residency program in Finland and would like to get a better idea about their local mythological stories. This seems like a good place to begin.

trailer:



It has been a while since I publicly made Art and I have ideas that have been waiting to be made for so long. I am taking this residency deadline as a catalyst to start thinking about returning to the path again..

SAMPO (1959), also known as The Day the Earth Froze (1hr 26m film)


From the YT video description: "SAMPO (1959), also known as The Day the Earth Froze, is a classic fantasy adventure film inspired by the Finnish epic Kalevala. The story follows a magical artifact called the Sampo, forged to bring wealth and prosperity, and the epic battle between heroes and dark forces who seek to control its power. Directed by Aleksandr Ptushko, this visually stunning Nordic mythological film is considered a cult classic of fantasy cinema."

Sunday, August 18, 2013

There's an audience out there.. / 8/18/13 8:39 AM

And I found an audience, an audience of small things; and they make me I feel good.

You might have realized that since completing my MFA at Goldsmiths I have been in somewhat of a limbo. Financially I just couldn't continue, and physically I had over-worked and just needed a good rest.

Well right now I am selling simple old drawings of mine from 13 years ago, I add new elements to them and blur the boundaries between old or new. I am selling them... 

I have exquisite expensive Art Prints in the house, in fact I have several cubic meters of extremely expensive photography sitting here but until I can sell these projects I will also continue to work with the audience of small things..


- now it is 10 years later, 2023. 
All I want to know is, what is "The Audience of Small Things?" Do I have notes about them? Did I invent them? Checking in on Birgit of the past makes me realise that I don't seem to know her as well as I thought I might..

Wednesday, April 24, 2013

Yet another beginning

who doesn't like a beginning?
Me, actually. But that aside I just wanted to introduce yet another new blog of mine and I need to make one thing clear:
I am not always perfect. I am not always perfectly right and I even make mistakes. I am not flawless, nor am I über-intellectual, as much as I would like to be.. I just need a place to write and regurgitate my thoughts. Yes, it often feels like a form of vomiting because my words can be irrepressible, much to the suffering of the one who endures them daily...

I really need to get my head back in order and into working order, too. Life is a mess and yes I shall add my mess to the mess of publicly blogging messmakers before me. Feel very welcome to send me essays about the phenomenon of spilling one's emotional innards out in public, I am super interested as this phenomenon is clearly my infliction.

Until further notice: see you later.

Tuesday, February 19, 2013

Art Project: Chorus / in vain I will away

(as seen in October 2010, at the Museum Benaki in Athens and the Affordable Art fair in London)

also see: http://www.saatchionline.com/profiles/portfolio/id/154215








Exhibition at the Benaki Museum in Athens curated by Out of the Box Intermedia / Sozita Goudouna main website
Exhibition at the Affordable Art Fair in London, Battersea Park, curated by Jessica Hall.


Thursday, January 10, 2013

Yes you are in the right place, this is indeed where you can find me!

Please use the tags above to view work descriptions and images without the need to scrolling through years of blog posts.. I am using this page as my notepad for fairly unedited ideas and too keep track of things I liked. Feel free to browse.

I hope you will get in touch. 

Friday, November 16, 2012

Sunday, October 21, 2012

updating everything

it is taking a little time, but piece by piece I am updating this blog again (after a long dormant period), and it is taking over from my website, which is due to go off air in the next month. I have added exhibitions views and initial project descriptions, which still need accompanying images to complete them. I will hopefully re-launch this blog with a little promotion in the next months.

If you are wondering: I am still making new Art, just the backlog needs clearing first.

Wednesday, August 15, 2012

Can't stop thinking about Butoh






















finding me on the web

found on the curator Alfedo Cramerotti's website : Exhibitions / QUAD I Birgit Deubner: Devotional Choreography I & II [curating] 09.05.2009 to 26.06.2009
This was an exhibition featured on the QUAD Digital screens around the building.– – – Devotional Choreography / Khoreia is a composition of films and video display that concentrates on the visual poetry of movement and gesture, developed over centuries to express faith. The artist takes on the role of choreographer, composing a dialogue between faith rituals; this process leads an investigation into the life of gestures, which form a shared language, in inseparable association with religious expression.

emotional body / conceptual body

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Monday, April 23, 2012

reading / should be reading


THIS WAS ENTIRELY COPIED FROM: davidpaulrodriguez.wordpress.com

SONTAG AND AZOULAY


For Susan Sontag, in contrast to Michael Fried, the difference in approach to reading photography is clearest in their interpretations of Jeff Wall’s Dead Troops Talk. Fried actually quotes Sontag’sRegarding the Pain of Others in the introductory chapter to Why Photography Matters. In her analysis of the piece, Sontag writes “Engulfed by the image, which is so accusatory, we could fantasize that the soldiers might turn and talk to us. But no, no one is looking out of the picture. There’s no threat of protest. They are not about to yell at us to bring a halt to that abomination which is war… These dead are supremely uninterested in the living: in those who took their lives; in witnesses – and in us. Why should they seek our gaze? What would they have to say to us? ‘We’… don’t understand. We don’t get it. We truly can’t imagine what it was like. We can’t imagine how dreadful, how terrifying war is; and how normal it becomes. Can’t understand, can’t imagine.” Sontag talks about Dead Troops and its power in a much wider photographic context than Fried and just “art photography.” Sontag is not considering photography as contemporary art, and is not interested in photographs that exist solely for museum and gallery walls. Her fascination with photography is concerned with its mass dissemination and effect on mass culture.
In Regarding the Pain of Others, Sontag takes issue with two ideas she previously wrote about in earlier essays. The first being that public attention is steered by media, or the “CNN effect” as she calls it. Photographs of events shape “what catastrophes and crises we pay attention to, what we care about, and ultimately what evaluations are attached to these conflicts.” (p.105)
The second idea being “that in a world saturated, no, hyper-saturated with images, that that should matter have a diminishing effect: we become callous.” (p.105)
Sontag writes that the main vehicle in which the public gets its news, television. “Images shown on television are by definition images of which, sooner or later, one tires. The whole point of television is that one can switch channels, that it is normal to switch channels, to become restless, bored. Consumers droop. They need to be stimulated, jump-started, again and again. Content is no more than one of these stimulants.” (p. 106)
The idea Sontag touches on about a growing sense of apathy through the numbing effect that television provides, in its ability to let us turn away or change the channel, and its presentation of fact and fiction in a manner that we may find either entertaining reminds me of a parable by Soren Kierkegaard:

“THE HAPPY CONFLAGRATION – What happens to those who try to warn the present age?
It happens that a fire broke out backstage in a theater. The clown came out to inform the public. They thought it was just a jest and applauded. He repeated his warning, they shouted even louder. So I think the world will come to an end amid general applause from all the wits, who believe that it is a joke.”
After a poignant first hand account of her upbringing in Israel, Arielle Azoulay writes in The Civil Contract of Photography that the “theory of photography proposed in this book is founded on a new ontological-political understanding of photography.” (p. 23) The term “ontological-political” understanding is an interesting one to think about and makes sense as to why Azoulay takes issue with Susan Sontag’s Regarding the Pain of Others. To have an ontological understanding in any sense, one needs to consider the relationship to the photograph between the photographer and the photographed subject, and between the photographed subject and the spectator. Not just the spectator and photographic object as Azoulay felt many were too focused on. Azoulay wants to explore the ethical and political implications photographs carry with them that are just as inherent in them as the ontological qualities of photographs that interested Roland Barthes and Walter Benjamin.
Azoulay believes that “the photographic act and the space of photographic relations, treats everyone the same (in as much as everyone in Israel – Jewish and Palestinian – has more or less equal access to being photographed and to making claims for themselves via photography and allows us to overcome the limits of state declared citizenship by declaring everyone a ‘citizen of photography.’ Azoulay argues therefore, that we are all governed equally under the modern visual regime of photography.” (note on p.25)
“When the photographed persons address me, claiming their citizenship in photography, they cease to appear as stateless or as enemies, the manners in which the sovereign regime strives to construct them. They call on me to recognize and restore their citizenship through my viewing.” In comparison with Sontag, whom Azoulay implies has a tendency to address the photograph instead of the person that is the photographed subject, Azoulay’s thoughts about these photographic images describe the ways in which they are viewed by spectators as well as the subject’s desire to address the viewer through them.

Azoulay ponders “What is the foundation of the gaze I might turn back toward them? Is it my gaze alone, or is it their demand directed toward the civil position I occupy?”  Azoulay uses the example of a 1982 photograph by Anat Saragusti, taken as a shop keeper in the town of Hebron holding up the lock to his shop, recently clipped by Israeli police in order to break up a strike. The shop keeper has a gaze that locks on with whoever views the photograph and with and outstretched hand holds up a broken lock for further examination. “When the Hebron merchant stands up in front of the camera, lock in hand, he isn’t demanding remuneration for the broken lock. His stance is an insistent refusal to accept the noncitizen status assigned him by the governing power and a demand for participation in a sphere of political relations within which his claims can be heard and acknowledged.”  

Monday, December 5, 2011

complete bodies

So at which point is a body complete? A body of work, a human body, a body?
Missing parts complete or deplete the body? The work? The picture? The photograph...? I am currently looking at bodies that have lost limbs in tragic and violent circumstances. But is the tragedy really timelessly, continually present or is the presence of absence in a way fabricated and nourished by projection of expectation not met (the expectation of having or seeing a 'complete' body with no 'absences'...)..?

Documentation or creation of a different perception..?